Keep choosing Love... no matter what!

So; What’s sending Love “lovingly” created in my life up until now? (for more detailed highlights see “Pages” on side bar)

Well let’s see...
• There was the whole flatmates son waking up the next day after I sent him Love, feeling all “brand new”, and has had a dose of the happy’s most days since;

• My friends new baby has started sleeping longer during the night; and my friend, herself, is feeling not so exhausted;

• The “chatter box’s” in my yoga class all spontaneously went quite (so the rest of us could peacefully get centred before class started) 30 seconds after I started sending Love to everyone in the room. And I wasn’t even pushing any agenda. Just wanted to see what would happen sending Love to a room full of people... cool, huh!.

• Then there was that few hours one afternoon where I felt totally confident, powerful, beautiful and even taller; until I got freak out by how powerful it felt to feel this good about myself. Unfortunately it shut off after that... bummer; Workin on getting that one back.

• A few days after sending Love to my bank account, credit cards and other financial issues, I went into my bank to deposit a small cheque, and walked out with a whole new savings account and a Visa debit card, which I feel has created new energy for all the amazing abundant prosperity that is on its way into my life.

• Oooh!!! And let’s not forget my local shopping centre offering to pay for my purchases whilst I was in the health food shop that day. They even up’t it to $100, just because I’m so fabulous!!! Or maybe they secretly thought I looked like I could do with a good dose of vitamins? Whatever the reason, I am truly grateful!

Side note: Apart from the apparent abundance from this experience, the fact that it was $100 worth of free health products was an added bonus, as health and wellbeing is one of the topics on my list that I have been sending Love to.

• Became attracted to a very unavailable man... (haven’t been interested in anyone for quite some time now) Am obviously getting “opening to Real Love” mixed up with misdirected romantic notions. I’m so over this pattern. Sending Love for that one to be cleared up big time... but wonderful lesson on how to experience true heart connections with another without misinterpreting it, or needing to turn it into a “romantic relationship”

• Sent Love to my Mum, before our “fortnightly” phone call.... Love worked that well, she wasn’t home when I rang.... lol.... (sorry mum)

Actually because of that, it lead to me having an amazing spontaneous healing meditation that took me back to a core issue where abundance / Love / and my relationship with my mother were all tied up in a very big poverty consciousness knot... looking forward to seeing how that healing makes a difference to Love and abundance in my Now Life!

• Have had a few seriously fabulous shopping bargain experiences, spontaneously coming across things I actually needed, even in the exact colours I love (that in itself is a miracle, as I’m pretty particular ), on special, only days after thinking to myself “I must get some new...whatevers”. Go Love!!!

• Then there was that amazing dolphin sighting the other day. I’ve lived here for more than 5 yrs and have seen many dolphins over that time. But nothing as close up and personal as this experience.

• Was inspired by Love to start this Blog. Obviously, in its Divine Wisdom, Love knew I would come up against some dark road blocks along the journey. But by committing to this 90 days, I have to keep going right on through them... clever little Love, with its Divine Intelligence!

• And now, a little over 2 wks into sending Love, the not so fun part is starting to arise... Am coming up against some things I’ve been trying to break free from for a long time. The many nasty insidious ways that some part of me uses to keep me “safe”; and very small; and very limited; and very disempowered. Dark feelings (way worse than a massive dose of PMT). Huge negative head, limiting thoughts, brain fog, not being able to see or feel anything in any kind of positive light (couldn’t “see” myself out of a wet paper bag in those moments). Not to mention pulling the old “illness” card just to make sure you don’t try anything too fabulous. Trying anything it can to keep me in the poor me / victim / poverty consciousness, that I’ve been cycling round and around in for far too long now.

This is the place where, in the past, I would normally give in, and go back to the comfort zone of my self-imposed prison of isolation and just “existing” (rather than truly Living!!!)

But this time I have Love on my side. And even though right in this moment it seems harder to feel the Love, or to find the motivation to send it out; I just dig a little deeper, and push myself a just that bit harder to Know and Believe, that Love IS taking care of all I send it to; no matter how I’m feeling...

And you know, even through this not so light moment, the Love and the support and the signs keep showing up to urge me on... Like an appropriate teleconference coming on as I’m listening to music randomly from my computer, that just happens to be by an amazing healer, doing clearings around the specific issues I just happen to be going through right now... Or those “perfect timing” catch ups with a friend at a cafe, whom I haven’t seen in a while, who just happens to impart the most appropriate insights and wisdom to help me on the next leg of my journey... Encouraging bumper stickers on the back of the car that just cut in front of me ( that fortunately I noticed just before the tirade of abuse I was about to hurl at the driver left my mouth, and in its place, a smile of appreciation and gratitude erupts instead )...

So I keep choosing Love. No matter how dark it seems to get. No matter how resistant or apathetic or negative I begin to feel. I keep choosing Love, because I’ve committed to do so every day for 90 days. And because somewhere inside of me I know ultimately all this will pass (thank goodness) And because I know that eventually I will open up to a Love within me, that is far more amazing than I could ever imagine. And in turn, this inner joy and Love will reflect back to me in my outer life.

And as I keep choosing Love; Love keeps choosing me right back!!!...