The "Not So Highlights" of the past few days...

• Started off with a 3 day headache, intensifying into that bloody migraine I hinted at in the last blog...

• Then there was the sobbing on the kitchen floor, backed up against the cupboard, the cat staring me out, sitting next to his “EMPTY” food bowls. Why do cats do this, day in, day out, unrelentingly, every time you enter the kitchen? They know when they get fed. The relentlessness is just way too much pressure...

• Sobbing, foetal on the bed. (Doesn’t do much for the crystals you have precisely laid out on all your chakra centres, hoping these would help clear the emotional cesspool).

• More sobbing. This time foetal on the shower floor. (By now, am questioning my level of sanity. Maybe my friends had all decided to not tell me that there really is something “not quite right” about me, and have just been being “kind” to me over these past years???)

• Feeling like I was starting to retreat back into that old familiar safe “bubble”. Trying to shut out all the good I’ve been attracting; falling back into those old thoughts and feelings that have me wanting to pull the covers ALL the way up over my head, not even leaving my nose out so you can breathe... WHY, would anyone in their right mind want to reject abundance, Love, life, joy, living???

But wait... Before it gets all to dark and gloomy, there are “Highlights” within this seemingly tragic few days.

• A dear friends words came to mind in the midst of the “foetal in the shower” scene... “Let’s reframe this shall we...” (“reframe” means to look at the whole thing from a more positive light). And as I do, the analogy of the sling shot comes into my mind... “Sometimes you are “seemingly” drawn backwards so that the elastic band can get nice and taut, just before you are flung forward, (hopefully screaming with joy), into that great, positively abundant, unknown of the next phase of your Life”.

• Having fabulous friends that listen to the rantings of a “mad woman”, and still they want to hang out with her no matter how insane she seems. (bless you, Precious Ones)

• Had my first day of my new “designed just for me” job. The first couple of hours I got to just sit, blissfully mesmerized by the sun dancing on the pristine waters of the bay. But after awhile, I thought that making a few dollars would be nice, seeing that’s why I was there. So I sent Love to the situation, and no word of a lie, within 10mins I had my first customer, and then 2 more after that. Came home with a tidy “$none of your business... (lol)”. Gotta love “Love”! And gotta Love abundance!!!

• This morning I got to see firsthand how sending “Love” does remove even the stubbornest of dark moments: I was feeling pretty dazed and spun out by all these old feelings and past traumas that have been surfacing over the past little while. Wasn’t quite sure if I had what it took to break through what was becoming the overwhelming hopelessness of it all. Fortunately, somewhere in amongst it all, I had enough sense to ask “Love” for help. I sat out in the sun, and listened to all 4 of Klaus’s meditations on Love. At first nothing seemed to be shifting, I felt so swallowed up by all this helplessness. But I kept asking “Love” to help me, and I kept listening to the meditations.

I was eventually shown a vision. I won’t go into the details, as it was personal to me, but what I witnessed was the power, and the reality of “Love” at work...

I came out of the whole experience with a sense of renewal, a sense of hopefulness, and a reason to snap out of all the crap, and get on with creating a joyfilled, abundant Life.

Maybe I’ll fill you in re: what happened a bit further on down the track? Or not...

But for now, keep watching this space. And keep sending the “Love”!!!